Jessica's Journey

So this is what everything is supposed to look like!?!?

2005-10-13T20:45:00.000-05:00

I haven't worn my scratched up glassed in about 7 years! I decided that before I start driving again I was getting new glasses. As I said in my last post, Jason took me to have an eye exam and to pick out some new glasses for fitting back into my jeans. We went to pick them up today and HOLY COW! (I know grandma...no mentioning cows! --that's a whole different story) Anyway, I forgot how beautiful trees were when you could actualy tell that they have leaves on them and not big green blobs! I even caught myself squinting when I didn't need to. It's goona take some getting used to, but everything around me looks different. I seen things on the way home that i never knew was there! I think I got on Jasons nerves though when I started reading out every liscense plate on the road. During 5 o'clock traffic, that's alot of plates! LOL! The littlest things amaze me. :-)

My Updated Scrapbook Website

2005-10-07T21:11:00.000-05:00

If you like to scrapbook then check this out! I updated my Hull-A-Baloozy Girl Website! I can finally sell scrapbook pages and personalized albums. The only thing I need to add to it, is pics of my pages that i'll be selling. Until then anyone can e-mail me for examples. Hopefully they'll be up by the end of next week.

Scrapbooks also make great gifts. Especially when you don't have to do any of the work! ;-)

Well, work is going well. It's actually wearing me out. My boss is going to the beach next week, so for the first time I'll be working full time hours. I'm gonna be sooooooooo sore! At least it will be easy not to think about food like I do when I lay around the house! It's also hard because i'm wothout a vehicle at the moment. I'll just appreciate it more when I do get my car freedom back.

I've had to get rides from Jasons mamaw a few times. Bless her heart, she tries to make conversation with me. She turned me off of greens forever. They grow them and she talks about how when she washes them in the sink she might let a worm ot two go without notice. For me, that means i'll be skipping the greens for dinner after church on sunday! Why is it that old people are always so cold?? She always has the heat on full blast, even when it's 85 degrees outside! Anyway, can you tell i'm dying to get a car or what?!

I've started to read "The Purpose Driven Life". My mom got it for me for my birthday this year and i've finally got around to it. You have to read it over the course of 40 days to symbolize change. Change is symbolized in the bible by Noah and the rain for forty days, the disciples and the forty days after Jesus ressurected and so on. You get the idea. Anyway, i'm on my second day and this is one of those books that makes you think. I'm really enjoying how you have to let each chapter sink in until you go on to the next one. I hope it helps me to have an even closer relationship with God. Check it out, you won't regret it! If you like to write get the Joural that goes with it. It's supposed to be a great tool. I've been using my prayer journal.

God Bless and have a great day!

Weight Update

2005-10-05T07:18:00.000-05:00

I have found myself working 5 days a week. By the time I come home to fix my dinner and get things ready for the next day, i'm worn out. So I know you all miss me, but i'll get use to this soon! Until then, here is my weight update for the week! I lost 1.5 lbs this week!!!!!!

Ultimate Goal

Halloween Goal

My 10 Pound Bear

2005-09-28T17:23:00.000-05:00

Yesterday I recieved my 10 lb bear. That was exciting to get. I can't wait to get my 20 lb bear. If all goes the way I plan I'll have it by Halloween. As of this week I have 12.5 lbs to lose for my halloween mini goal and 60.5 lbs total! Slowly but surely i'm getting there!

Halloween Mini goal

Overall Goal (hopefully by next May)

Tag I'm It!

2005-09-24T09:59:00.000-05:00

Thanks BOB!!

6 Things I Want To Do:

Build a house
Have a baby
travel
get my scrapbooking business booming
mountain bike again
drive(get to do that today for the first time since my wreck!)
lose 61 pounds

6 Things I Can Do:

walk(barely)
give a mean foot rub
shop
pray
scrapbook
work part time

6 Things I Can’t Do:

go shopping on rodeo drive
run/jump
work 40 hours/week (i could if i had a sit down job!)
work as an iron worker(not after my injuries)
a backwards flip (not any more)
fly

6 Things That Make Me Attractive To The Opposite Sex:(these were answered by my hubby!)

personality
eyes
my determination
my cuddlieness (if that's a word!)
i care about the ones I love
my chest

6 Things I Say All The Time:

i'm so fat
uh-oh
Lord, I need your help!
I love you
what are you gonna eat?
why can't I be normal like everyone else!?

6 Celebrity Crushes :

Tom Welling
Paul Walker
Orlando Bloom
Freddie Prinze Jr
Eminem
George Eads

6 Strangers That I've Tagged:

Heather
Tina
Sue
The Jazz-Man
The Family Man
Megan

Hooray!!!!

2005-09-21T10:59:00.000-05:00

I'm down 2 more pounds. I'm officially on my way to my halloween mini goal!

For the past week I have been walking every day for excersise. It's exciting to be able to walk agian. In another week my 10lb weight limit will be gone and I'll be able to go back to the gym. soooooo excited about getting back into shape! I thought I would share the good news with everyone. Have a Skinny day!

Memorial To A Fish

2005-09-19T22:49:00.000-05:00

I'm so depressed!!! Sunday morning my gold fish died. We have had him and anoher one for almost 2 years. It had fin rot and I did everything I could to treat it. It was a downward spiral. He just got worse and worse. He was about to die any day now. So Jason and I decided to put him out of his misery. When I was getting ready for church, Jason took him out of the tank and as soon as his little gills hit the air, he died. So after church we burried him in the backyard. I cried. It sounds silly to cry over a fish, but you get a little attached to them after a while. We still have a big healthy fish. We'll have to give him away soon, becuase he's getting to big for the tank. We'll have to find someone with a gold fish pond.

Enough about the fish. I have been working part time and it's been going pretty well. I hurt alot afterwards, but I guess that's gonna be expected. I'm going to start working full time soon and i'm very nervous. I have no choice but to do it. If I don't i'm afraid i'll be replaced. Being without a car is becoming to be another problem. I had moey saved back for a down payment on one, but Jason has some problems with his teeth that we have to fix first. If it's not one thing it's 5 things(in our case)! So, now i'm stressing on finding a way to get a car soon before I lose my job. Anybody want to contribute to my car fund let me know...lol...just kiddin'! Let's see...what's that saying again?? Oh yeah, desperate times call for desperate measures. :)

I guess we'll be praying for a miracle. Any prayers will help!
Thanks for listening and Goodnight!

Oh by the way, everybody needs to place themselves on my map. I'm beginning to feel like no one loves me!! :)

New Mini Goal

2005-09-15T06:00:00.000-05:00

I reached my Labor Day goal of 10 lbs. I can't believe how easy this has become! So, i'm ready for a new mini goal. By halloween i'm going to lose AT LEAST 15 lbs. It's more then normal, but I think that since I've become more active it may speed up a little. I hope and pray it does. At this rate I'll be down to my goal weight Dec. of 2006. I HAVE to lose it sooner than that. I know I can do it. I have noticed that I am losing alot slower than most. My mom keeps telling me that's a good thing. Even thought I know it is, I can't help but to want this weight off alot faster. It will all work out! God has my back!

New Mini Goal:
178 lbs by Halloween

I'm In Here Somewhere!

2005-09-11T14:41:00.000-05:00

July 28, 2005 (I need to fix the date on my camera.)

September 11, 2005
Jason and I decided since it had been a little over a month that it was time to take some pictures of my progress. Almost six weeks in and i've lost 18 inches and 10 lbs. I'm not as concerned about the scale as much as I use to be, although it helps. I can tell it in my clothes now too. Jason got me some new pants for work (my old ones were cut off of me in the wreck) and I have gone from size 18 to 16. I can't wait to be a 9/10 again! That would be awesome. I get to start going back to the gym in about 3 weeks when my doc takes me off my 10lb weight limitation. I'm hoping that will speed up my weight loss some. So, tell me what you think! Leave me a comment and tell me where you see the biggest difference. I think I see it everywhere, but mostly in my stomach!

HOORAY!!!!

Labor Day Mini Goal

2005-09-05T17:59:00.000-05:00

Hurray! I have reached my 10 lb goal to Labor Day. I was nervous being only 9 lbs til Labor Day yesterday. I wake up this morning and got on the scale hoping that the last pound came off. Guess what? It did!!!! 5 weeks on NS and I have finally lost 10 pounds. I feel like it's coming off slower than some people, but at least it's coming off.

I'm at 193 expecting my first bear (maybe before my next order I can make a goal to get my 2nd bear). My goal weight is 130. I just started my 2nd month recently and have planned on doing it for 3 months. I think I am going to do it for a few more months if I can afford it. I though about mixing in my own foods every once and a while to make the NS food last longer. When I do lose my weight I would like to apply for the next contest and I know you can't do it if you aren't using NS food. I guess we'll have to see how things go.

Hull-A-Baloozy Girl Scrapbooking

I haven't posted anything in a few days because I have been busy working on another blog. I have been making scrapbook pages and selling them by word of mouth. I decided to bring the business to the web. I know alot of people want a professional scrapbook, but don't have time or the drive to do it themselves. That's where I come in. I also would like to teach other people scrapbooking techniques that I have learned. So i'm adding tips and techniques to the blog every week. There is also a news letter to subscribe to. If you want a gift for someone or you enjoy scrapbooking, then this site is for you. I'm working on a link to my scrapbook pages so that you can see my work to get an idea of what you may want. Check it out and let me know what you think. The link is under my links. Oh yeah, there is also a forum for comments and questions!

Tag I'm It?!

2005-08-31T17:29:00.000-05:00

Thanks Nikki
Here's my quiz....

1. What is the ratio of sexy panties to granny panties currently in your possession?

Hanes her way cotton bikini, as of now. When I get thinner I will get my bag of size 6 to 7 thongs out of the closet!

2. Pretend you won one of the "make your dreams come true" deals that Oprah is always giving away. What would you ask for?

Definately a house. So my husband and I could get out of his parents basement alot quicker. Also a new car because I don't have one right now on account of my car wreck! If it was somethin impossible it would be for my husband to get cured of his juvenile diabetes. Realistically I would want to be sent on a mission trip to Africa for a month! That would feel good.

3. Describe your high school days in one word.

Rebel. I was a bad girl!

4. If you could shag any celebrity in the world, who would be your top three picks?

Tom Welling from Smallville. He's Clark Kent/Kae-el from krypton. He is SEXY!!
Pual Walker
Vin Diesel

5. If you had all the money in the world, more than you could ever spend in four lifetimes, would you eat some?

I agree with Nikki. Money is Germy. I'm already obsessive compulsive when it comes to germs.

6. Tag 3 People.

1. Sue
2. Amy
3. Christina

Back Into the Swing of Things...Kindof!

2005-08-31T08:20:00.000-05:00

First I have to mention that I have finally lost 1 pound. The scale is finally moving again! Now I have to lose 1 more pound before Labor Day for my mini goal. I know I can do it!

Monday was my first day back to work at The UPS Store . It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Only worked for 2 hours and will continue to do so the rest of the week. I stood the whole 2 hours. I didn't know I could do that. I had yesterday to recooperate. My legs were very sore monday night. Jason fixed me a foot bath to soak my feet. I love getting pampered by my hubby! Yesterday he took me to get some shoes for work. My old ones were stained with blood from my car wreck. This time I got steel toed shoes. If a box falls on my feet...it won't do any damage.

I use to where steel toed boots when I was an Iron Worker. That was a job! I learned to climb steel at 360 feet. I bolted up, rigged and all kinds of physical labor. When I did that I was able to keep my weight down aroun 145. I was in great shape and very srong. I worked harder than most the men! LOL! I made sure they knew that I could do everything that they could!

Good Times! :-)

Anyway, back to the subject at hand...I go back for my second day this afternoon. I'm just getting Use to my duties and jobs all over again. My check might be for about 10 hours. I guess I gotta start somewhere!

Here is a pic from my iron working days. There are more in my pictures link.

Pastor Curtis Tindell

2005-08-29T10:05:00.000-05:00

Yesterday was a sad day for my church. Our Pastor, Curtis left Texas Valley Baptist Church after 26 years. He has been very sick and it was time for him to retire. No one knew until he got done preaching. Everyone was crying. I'm having a very hard time dealing with it. I started going to that church 2 years ago. Curtis and his wife, Joy, helped Jason and I through some very rough times. I will always be thankful for everything they have done for us. Texas Valley Baptist Church won't be the same for a long time. I'm sure that who ever takes his place will be great, but I can't help but to think that it won't ever be the same.

Dear Lord, Help our church to be strong and keep us together during this time. Send us a pastor that will lighten us up. Keep Curtis and Joy safe for always and give them the courage to come back as parishoners.

Back to Work

2005-08-28T22:09:00.000-05:00

I went to the doctor on Friday and he says that everything is moving along smoothly. My breaks look more like hair line fractures on the x-rays.

He also gave me a work release to go back to work part time. Karen is going to let me work for a couple hours at a time at first. I'm excited, but nervous. Tomorrow, Monday, is my first day back. Just for 2 hours. I have only stood for 40 minutes since my wreck. The good thing is that I have permission to sit every chance I get until I get stronger. The doctor said that in about a month I should be able to work full time. It makes me so happy that I get to go back this soon, because now Karen doesn't have to hire anyone else. More hours for me!

When I had my car accident, I was on my way to work and the EMT cut the only pair of kacky pants that fit, off of me. I mean into peices. So, Jason took me this past weekend to buy some to wear to work. I have gone from an 18 back to a size 16. I was excited, but it still depresses me to try on clothes. I know I can do this. NS is so easy, I just have to be very strong and stay far away from my cravings. I have done great so far. I think I have hit a plateau. I have been at the same weight going on 3 weeks. I'm thinking about switching my dinner with my lunch for about a week to see if that helps any. Even though i'm not losing on the scale, I am still dropping in inches. Also, I have had some of my in-laws mention a noticeable loss in my weight. That made me feel GREAT!!!

Time to rest up for my big day tomorrow! God Bless!

Not Giving Up

2005-08-24T20:58:00.000-05:00

I am glad that I'm losing weight slowly, but I hope I don't have 2 weeks with zero weight loss. I think alot of it has to do with the fact that I can't be as active as I should be. I'm hoping Jason and I have a solution for my state of inactiveness. We found an indoor pool at the YMCA down the street from us. He's going to take me as soon as I find out the hours. I can't wait. I love the water and it's great therapy.

I lifegaurded for 6 years and would have made it a career. My only set back was that I had to grow up. It still took me forever to realize that going to the bars every night and drinking my life away wasn't "growing up". I woke up about 2 years ago and got over that phase of my life very quickly. I found out that there was more to life than a party and what ever else I could get myself into.

I always knew there was a God and always believed in Him. I guess I never really believed in His love and everything He stood for. I went through catholic schools most of my life. There are two kinds of kids in those schools. The ones who learned of His love and took advantage of it and the ones who knew He would always be there, took advantage of Him and rebelled in the end. The only thing I can't figure out, was I had nothing to rebel over. My parents brought us up great and with Gods love. I have been praying about it lately, so I can keep my future children from making the wrong decisions about sex, alcohol and drugs. I'm so thankful God is so forgiving and always waiting for us to come to Him. I don't know where I would be if He wasn't our God.

Now that we (Jason and I) are on the right path, things have been better. Granted I did have a car accident, I believe it happened for a reason and I know that what ever he has planned for me will be great. I'm still alive so my task is not done. I may be a late bloomer, but i'm here and have been finally living my life like a christian should! It feels so natural and normal to live this way.

On another note...

My boss, Karen needed someone today to run an errand and she called me! Jason took me after he got home from work. I was happy that she called. I used to be there anytime she needed me, and I want it to be that way again. I know it will take time, but it will all work out. She was going to hire someone until I got back, but she saw me walking last night and decided that she wouldn't need to. I guess she thought it would take longer for me to heal than she thought. I'm planning on buying a new car when I get back to work. It's always exciting to look for new cars, but at the same time, I'm nervous about driving again.

Enough blabbing for one day!
God Bless

Life is Good!

2005-08-23T10:13:00.000-05:00

Things are starting to look up, besides my slow weight loss! Jason and I finally paid off ALL our bills except for my school loan. I'm so excited. In a few weeksI get to pick out a new car. NOT a sports car. I'm staying away from those non-crash proof sorry excuse for a vehicle. I want something big and safe and family oriented! I'm also thiking about taking a short trip to see my brother and his family in Colorado before I go back to work next month. I think I need a breather. I 'd love for Jason to come along, but I don't know if we can aford for him to take off of work and the extra plane ticket. We'll have to see how it goes.

Jason is taking me to hobby lobby this weekend! I can't wait. More scrapbook stuff to add to my overflowing, unorganized collection. It won't be organized until we get a house and I get my own "craft space".

I'm excited becuase I finally am in charge at an event at church. Surprise, surprise, it's a crop party! I can't wait all the same. I love sharing my tips and teaching scrapbooking. It will be so much fun.

Yesterday for the first half of the day, I walked around so unbelievably normal! Later in the day, it started to hurt again and I continued to walk like frankenstien. :-) Hey, at least I can joke about my new "old lady walk"!

Have a great day and remember to "Smile....God Loves You!"

Good Weekend!

2005-08-22T07:46:00.000-05:00

Jason and I went to see me mom and dad yesterday. They are so sweet. My dad handed me a book of poems. The ironic thing is that I use to have the same book in highschool. I've always wanted another copy. I have noticed that people are close to eachother, just know things. I don't know how or why, but it just happens.

Last Christmas I had bought my brother some pajamas. They came to visit and he forgot to bring some, but of course I never knew that. Then the day after we opened presents, my sister-in-law, connie, had plans to go and pick up an ornament for her and my brother. I got them one, without knowing they needed one!. Connie had bought my mom a robe and again, without knowing, I bought her matching slippers! Wierd!

Anyway, It happens and it's wild! Anybody else have things like that happen??

Back to our visit with the parents...My mom croched a wedding blanket for Jason and I and it needed to be washed. I'm afriad to ruin it, so she washes it for me.

I haven't seen my dad in a while, so when I got out of the car he seemed surprised to see me walking without the walker. There are four steps into the house (the most i've walked up yet) and it wasn't very hard. Of 'course I had to take them one step at a time, but at least it's an improvement. I thought about calling my therapist and asking him if jason could help me up a flight of stairs for excercise.

Jason is a juvenile diabetic and his sugar started to get low, so mom made us fruit smoothies. She put pears in it, which was surprisingly very good. (mental note-buy pears). I know they didn't want us to leave but i was getting sleepy. I ended up sleeping on the way home and taking a 3 hour nap after I got home.

I really do love my mom and dad. We do have our disagreements, but i've always found that 90% of the time they are right! I know that they have my best interest in mind.

Jason went to work on saturday. More money! WOOHOO! I relaxed and did some luandry.

Sunday Jason and I went to church, as we always do. I hate to miss, because I feel like theres a black cloud over my head for the rest of the week. Our Preacher Curtis didn't preach, but his brother-in-law did. He was so moving. He had me in tears. Which seems almost normal in church lately. Jason is always running to the bathroom to get me tissues during church. He gets so concerned when it happens. It's sweet. Anyway here was the verses he read; Romans 10: 1-21. Here was the most significant part:

"That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath reaised him from the dead, though shalt be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.

~Romans Chapter 10: 9-10~

If we believe in God and believe that he rose from the dead an make him a part of our life, we will be saved. We must pray to him and make him our best friend. Confess to him always, because he will always forgive us and love us.

God bless and Pray always!

3 Week Weigh-In

2005-08-19T08:28:00.000-05:00

I haven't lost any weight this week. I'm still happy though because I have lost one inch everywhere. I'm so proud of myself for sticking to it and doing this 100%! I haven't had a sunkist in 3 weeks and 1 day! I was drinking at least 2 a day. I wouldn't even think aout drinking one today. I really like the way this program (i don't like to use the word diet) is teaching me to eat healthier. I'm getting into the habit of picking better choices and eating 5 times a day. I eat so good now, my body is having a hard time adjusting to it. I love it! Before this, I would probably eat fruit and veggies maybe once or twice a week. I never realized ow horrible I was eating. I'm also getting used to the portion sizes. These are all habits i'll be able to take with me through the rest of my life. It's also convenient for me to eat this way b/c Jason is a diabetic. So, there are always healthy food in the house and not very many snacks. Only the ones my parent-in-laws eat.

I am so ready to get out of this house. I'm happy to be out of the living room with my hospital bed, because I had NO privacy. Jason and I can't wait to get a house. It's hard to live with in-laws. They are great people, just nosey and i get annoyed alot. This wreck has put us even further behind. We have to buy another car now and a house seems eons away! Sometimes I just want to scream or cry or something! OK enough of my little pity party. Lets think of GOOD things, like, I'm getting better and healthier. I have a wonderful partner and lots of loving family and friends. And I also have GOD in my life. Someone I went a long time without. I can be at my very bottom, but there is a comfort knowing that God is on my side!

Finally Seeing A Change

2005-08-18T11:06:00.000-05:00

In the past couple days I have noticed that I have more room between my thighs and the walker. When I first started using it, I couldn't fit into it! So I had Jason measure me a couple days early. I have lost 1 whole inch! I needed a pick me up.

My legs have really been giving me problems the past couple of days. So my doctor said to try and stay off of them for a few days. I guess i've been doing to much and I may have gotten a little excited about being able to walk again and a little "cocky" as Jason puts it. Now that we are back in our bed, i'm enjoying the relaxation. It's gien me time to catch up on some reading and some movies. Nothing like a good book with a hot cup of green tea!

Change is Good, Right??

2005-08-16T20:21:00.000-05:00

Monday my therapist came for the last time. He gave me a "test" and said there was nothing more that he could do for me. So, between the "test" and a 30 minute trip at a yard sale on firday with my best friend, I have been very sore. Oh, I forgot to include the fact that my hospital bed and wheel chair are gone as of today. Jason was going to stay home to help get everything out of the livingroom and back to the badroom. We didn't realize they were coming today, I had 3 hours to do it myself. Then I had to get the room back to normal so that we could sleep in it. It has not been a good day! I am so tired and so sore!!! My butt is plastered to the bed for at least 12 hours!

I'm not sure how to deal. I was a little attached to that hospital bed. Having power at my finger tips with that little remote control to sit up or put my feet up....so nice! Let's not forget abut the wheel chair. I haven't used it in about a week and a half, but having it near gave me some comfort. This change is supposed to be good. I'm geting better. I'm walking and i'll be back to work and the gym in about 3 to 4 weeks. I'll have forgotten about the bed and wheel chair by then.

Well, time to lay my head down. God Bless.

It Could Be Worse

2005-08-12T13:30:00.000-05:00

My 2nd week weigh in was today and I didn't lose anything since wed. I did lose 6 pounds this week, so i'm fine with that. It's better than nothing.

Nicole left not too long ago and we went to a yard sale. I found a couple books. I stood for 30 minutes. That's the longest so far! I was hurting pretty bad though when I got into the car. I got home to find that I didn't have anymore ibuprofen, so I had to use Tylenol. Now I'm sitting here with a heating pad on my leg.

I'm finally starting to get comfortable with sleeping in our bed again. Jason loves it because he's not sleeping on the floor anymore. Poor guy. He wouldn't ever sleep in another room than me. I bet he's lovin' the bed! As for me, when he goes to work I come back to the hospital bed. There's a little attachment there I think. I'll be sad when it goes. I don't like to sleep in a big bed by myslef when Jason leaves for work. Before the accident, I would just get up and stay up. Things are slowly getting back to normal!

"But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint."

~Isaiah 40:31

This Really Works!

2005-08-10T10:18:00.000-05:00

I am finally on a roll. This diet really really works. I have lost 7 pounds so far. I'm not supposed to weigh in until Friday morning, but I needed a pick me up. Boy did it work! I'm on cloud nine, except I still feel really fat. I can't wait until my clothes start to fit again. That will be awesome! I think i'll go do my therapy excersices while i'm motivated and feeling good!

Enjoying My Time

2005-08-09T22:36:00.000-05:00

Jason and I before I gained my last 30 pounds (170lb) summer 2004
My therapist came today and he had my breakfast worked off right after I ate it! We did all my excercises and then he had me walk without my walker. I walk like frankenstien, but the stronger my left leg gets, the more mormal my stride will be. He did say that it would be possible for me to go back to work for an hour at a time at first in about 3-4 weeks. Since my accident in May, I have hated being at home all the time. I've decided to take advantage of it and enjoy it while I can. I can work more on getting stronger so that I can start excercising again and get back into my normal routine. Life is too short and I believe that everyone should take advantage of everyday to its fullest. We never know when our time will come and when our last day will be. I have learned that the hard way!

God Bless and have a skinny day!

Finally!

2005-08-08T20:05:00.000-05:00

Finally, the diet is paying off and the scale is going in the right direction. I know that it will take a while to get to my goal. I will really be happy when I can see it in my clothes. I have so many clothes, that it's rediculous. I can only fit into a few things here and there. I'm hoping to fit back into my jeans before it gets cold again. I can remember having a pair of jeans that were so huge on me. Last winter I couldn't even button them. I'll be so happy once they are big again. And then I have the jeans that we all keep in the back of the closet. You know, the ones that we hope we can fit into agian one day. I have about 6 of those! There is no point in buying new clothes for a long time. I have plenty. It's just a matter of fitting into them. I know I can do it. With 3 pounds gone for good in 3 days, i'm off to a good start!

My therapist comes tomorrow early in the morning. I'm going to ask him realistically how long will it be before I can go to work. I am taking a few steps without the walker and it feels great. The more I do my therapy and keep walking, it will happen soon.

I work for The UPS Store and the owner, Karen is willing to let me come back to work for an hour at a time so that I can work my way back up to full time. She really is great and has been really nice to me. Karen and her husband, Larry envited Jason and I to the lake. They rented a house boat and I didn't think it would be possible at the time b/c I was still stuck to my wheel chair. They got a pontoon boat to transfer me to the house boat. It was great. The highlight of my summer! (Sad, isn't it?)

God Bless and think skinny! I'm going to post some more pics soon, but just in case you can't wait that long than, click on my pictures under my links!

Hurray!!

2005-08-06T09:16:00.000-05:00

Yesterday I found out what I was doing wrong with my diet. The smallest thing can screw you up! So this morning I got on my scale for the heck of it. I had lost one pound in one day! I'm so excited and ready to finally kick this one in the bucket! (us southerners have an intelligent way of putting things!)

Good Scale/Bad Scale

2005-08-04T21:23:00.000-05:00

My day was off to a great start. Jason called me and said he had a surprise for me. So when he got home he gave me a new Scale! I was elated! That was a very thoughtful gift. So then it was time to weigh in for the first time. I couldn't believe it...I didn't lose anything. I thought that I should check the scale I used last week to see if they were off from eachother, but they weren't. Now I'm very disappointed. I'm not going to give up. This just means I have to try harder. I did talk to my counsler at NS and she checked my food diary. She said I haven't done anything wrong and that it could be that I didn't have any water weight to lose. I hope that is the case. It's just my luck that this weight will drop off as slow as possible! I really need some more encouragement. Jason has done and said all that he could. He doesn't really understand what i'm going through because he has always has a perfect body. I know I can do this, I just wish I could speed it up somehow. I also wonder if I could excercise, if that would make a difference. All I can do is my therapy and walk until my back can't take it anymore. They say "when it rains it pours". Well, its always pouring on me.

O.K., I'm done feeling sorry for myself. I'll probably feel silly when I do my scond weigh in and I lose what i'm supposed to. It's been so inspirational to read about all the people who have lost 5-10 pounds on thier first weigh in. I think I just got my hopes up. It will get better. I have faith.

Nervous

2005-08-03T22:20:00.000-05:00

I am so nervous about my first weigh in tomorrow. I know that I have probably had more fruit then whart is supposed to be added in the diet. I hope it doesn't effect my weight loss. If it does, then i've learned a good lesson. What I have been eating is alot better than before so, I don't see why I wouldn't lose the weight I'm supposed to! Well, I'll find out when Jason comes home tomorrow from work. He's going to take me to his mamaws so I can weigh myself.

I can't wait to get rid of the wheel chair! I'm at the point where I need it when we go to places like wal-mart. Places where I would have to walk a long distance. When I walk with my walker, it almost seems like I could just let go and keep walking. My left knee is still a little weak for that. Plus it probably wouldn't be the safest thing to do, even if my left leg was strong enough. It will happen soon enough and i'll be back to work in no time. Have a great day, and please, somebody start signing my guest book!

Easier Every Day

2005-08-02T09:59:00.000-05:00

I have been stuck in this hospital bed for three months and Sunday, Jason and I slept in our own bed for the first time. It felt great! I thank God for the smoothful recovery that I have been blessed with.

The NS diet is getting easier every day. I haven't had a Sunkist since last Wednesday. That is one thing I didn't thnk would be easy to give up. Honestly I haven't even wanted one. I have drank nothing but Orange Juice in the morning and water the rest of the day. Jason is proud and so am I. My first weigh in will be Thursday. Jason has to take me to his mamaws to use her scale. When I weighed in last Thursday I weighed 200 lbs and my goal weight is 130 lbs. I have a mini goal of 10lbs by labor day. I know I can do it. I would also like to make my halfway mark (35lbs) by thanks giving! Hopefully I'll pass that up, but I need to be realistic. If I lose this weight slowly, i'll be more likely to keep it off! Well, i'm going to stop blabbing about my weight and get motivated to do my excersises. God Bless and have a wonderful day!

"May the Lord bless you and keep you. May the Lord turn his face towards you and be gracious. May the Lord shine upon you and give you peace."

-Numbers 6:24-26

Bug in Ear

2005-07-31T22:16:00.000-05:00

This weekend has been a strange one. Jason and I were in line at brewsters to get ice cream (fat free of course) and a june bug flew in my hair. As I was trying to swat it out it fell and landed on my ear and before I could get it off it CLIMBED IN MY EAR!!!!!!! Jason tried to get it out, but before too long it was so far in that you couldn't see it any more! So he was rushing me to an emergancy room and all of a sudden it started to hurt! BAD! I thought my ear was going to explode! I thought it was going in deeper, so in a panic Jason pulled over to see if he could do something. When he came around to my side of the car he started to look in my ear and the darn bug flew out! It was horrible. I shook and cried for about an hour! It totally freaked me out! Anyway, I think that may have been punishment for all of the times that I tied strings to june bugs legs and let them fly around like a kite. Well they got me back!

My therapist came saturday (before the bug incident) and taught me alot of leg excercises while standing. I also noticed a smoother stride while walking with my walker this morning after church. I surprised my pastor by standing when he came over to say hello. They were singing Amazing Grace and I seriously thought that someone was going to stand up and yell "it's a miracle, Hallelujah!"

I can't wait to start walking without the walker. It makes me feel like such an old lady!

My diet with NS is going very well. Some of the food I really love, some of it I can doctor up with all the great recipes on the NS web site, and some of it i'm going to exchange for the ones I do like. Overall, I'v went ffrom 5-6,ooo calories a day to 1200 calories a day. I only pray that this diet works.

Well, time for bed. God Bless.

Before Picture

2005-07-29T17:08:00.000-05:00

Ok, This is horrible. Jason took this picture of me along with all other views of my behind and I almost bursted into tears. It was so embarrasing. Well, That's why i'm here to change my life, my eating habits and my physique as well. Wish me luck! This is my 2nd day and I 'm on a roll. My first mini goal is 10 lbs by labor day. It's a race with some other NS members... "Lets Roll!"

THE BEGINNING

2005-07-29T05:19:00.000-05:00

I started my NS diet yesterday. It went great! I got a lttle disturbed last night because my mother-in-law wanted to order pizza(my favorite food) even though she knew it was the first day of my diet. Well Jason talked her into having tacos, so I was alot more comfortable with eating my NS ravioli! Other than that i'm pleased so far with the food and I can't wait for next week to get on the scale. Tonight my husband is going to take a "before" picture of me and i'll post it tonight.

Last night I must have turned on my side sometime through out the night. It felt great for a while, but when Jason woke me up this morning to say good-bye, my left leg was stiff. It hurt so bad when we set my leg back to normal while i layed back on my back. It was horrible because the pains shot up my leg and then my spine. I know I talk alot about the pain i'm in. Anybody learning to walk again while having 2 broken legs will be in pain. I just can't wait to get back to work. Jason and I are going to try sleeping in our bed this weekend. My therapist said it was time. If you don't already know, Jason has been sleeping on the floor next to my bed for the past 3 months. I have tried to get him to go to our bed, but he just will not do it! He's the sweetest! I don't know what I would do without his support.

It finally came!

2005-07-27T20:54:00.000-05:00

Well, My NS food made it here this afternoon. Tomorrow is the big day. I know I can do this. I have to do this. If anyone has any motivational speeches for me...I need them now more than ever! I don't want to fail. I want to look better and feel better about myself. I made Jason take all of the snacks out of my reach. I can't trust myself at this point in time. I know I can, I know I can! I know I can do it and I'm gonna do it!

Enough of my "I can do it" spill. My walker and I aren't getting along still. Although my therapist said that I'm doing better today. I'm just having a problem with the pain i'm going through. It's not only in my legs today, but in my back as well. Ron, my therapist said to expect the pain in my back because it's not used to carrying around any weight. After being immobile for 3 months, that definately makes alot of sense.

Well i'm going to pray that I get off to a good start on my NS diet and go to bed.

Your Only a Day Away...

2005-07-26T20:22:00.000-05:00

This is me and Jason last summer! (180lbs)

I am so excited. I am fianlly getting my food tomorrow! I have tried everything else for so long and it's time to do something that will work. I usaully keep away from carbs, but after losing 40 pounds, it came back in less than a month. I'm over it and ready to do this once and for all! I now weigh 200lbs and my goal weight is 130lbs. If I can do this than I might not swallow my husband whole everytime we cuddle! Although he says he doesn't care how big I am.

I have been in so much pain for the past 2 days. I think that all the walking I have had to do has done a number on my left knee. My walker and I are not getting along this evening. Oh well, tomorrow is a new day.

Take A Walk

2005-07-25T16:05:00.000-05:00

My therapist came today and we walked further as we do every day he comes. Today I walked ouside for the very first time. The step was tough, but with Jason cheering on, I did well. Unfortunately, Ron, my therapist, has banned me from using the ramp Jason made for me and my wheelchair. I will walk to the car from now on. My walker and I have definately bonded!

A New Women

2005-07-25T08:00:00.000-05:00

I am finally making the change. Take a good look at me. You won't see this much of me ever again. As soon as the weight starts to drop off, i'll be a new woman!

Making Myself Accountable

2005-07-24T09:42:00.000-05:00

Today I am getting prepared to recieve my Nutrisystem order. I have 70 pounds to lose. I was in a car wreck on May 2nd. I have a rod in each leg and I'm in the process of learning to walk again. I have also had to suffer the reprocutions of sitting on my behind for the past 3 months. I've gained about 20 to 30 pounds. This is a start of a new day. I am holding myself accountable for my actions as I leave them in writing from day to day, right here on this page! I have no more excuses!